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Gerald - I don't know exactly what I am doing these days and after lunch
today,
I feel even more clueless. I need you to know that I never wanted or thought
in
a million years that this would be happening to us. I also need you to know
that I have never felt so low, this is not easy for me AT ALL. I can't bring
myself to sign the divorce papers. This all seems so unreal to me. I am
sorry
I doubted your capacity to forgive me early on, but I just couldn't imagine
that
you would ever be able to live with me again after knowing what I did. I
wish I
had done things differently and handled myself better.

It was good to see you and have a normal conversation like we used to. I hope
you have a fun weekend. See you Wednesday.

Lisa