Derivatives

Lisa, It is extremely hard to watch you struggle through this. It is hard
for me also. I sit up here trying to work when the reality of our current
situation weighs on me like a ton of bricks. It is hard for me not to break
down a couple of times a day, but the pace of my work usually forces me
through those times.

I don't know if my calling you, asking you to lunch, or holding your hand,
helps or hurts at this time. But I am not going to let us give up on each
other. My feelings for you run too deep to just try and bury them so that I
don't have to think about all the pain.

We are both struggling to find a place to start. I want to start by just
letting you know that not a day goes by without me thinking of a time when we
can put this behind us. I am not sure how to get there right now either.
However, during those few precious time lately when I get to look into your
eyes, I see the true Lisa (changed as she is by the last couple of years),
but still Lisa nonetheless. I need to get to know this changed true Lisa,
whatever happens in the near future.

I felt I just to had to write this email.

Gerald